Magical birth of my holy night. I seek the light from under the stairs. Just where_the under worn hats are borne. Live at the mystery theater. Shorts.
Bending over at the end of the table_ stillness arrives. I live here in the mind of the boy___ in question. I love this young man. He has potential, as a plenipotentiary.
An actual partition of moments is occurring. There is no question, I am having a moment of real vision. I like the unlikely continuance of what I only half expected. No broken pieces...only outstanding breaths to match... My exclusive rights to these special envelopes of now.
What can I say? What am I working for? Obvious answers would be__the self absorbtion of lens. Eyesight is the serial line of time given to mission space. Orders of business resume upon the latest request.
Unusual eyes seeking light action_ Corresponding to movement. Synchronizing my catch to the vessels sway of two and four. Beats per minute. A second passed in earnest enterprise. I am ignoring this night, because of things that disrupt. Point!
I have no reason to think_ I am in the well with the fish. My line is slightly askew. I want to reach the other side. Beneath the waves there is more. I am familiar with my place in this sea of sights.
Like a whale I cruise deep and slow. Rotating around a point of amber darkening. I know my weight is weighing in. Values of the great matters burst forth.
Ruling the chances to find the pathway of description. The sunlight lies under the skin. My enterprise __ my night of a thousand winds. Once more a door opens, and cruises out into perpetuity.
Light ladders weigh at the center of definitions edge. Singular thoughts come in fractions of suspension. I am a little like my life. Depends! I want that to mean more, even if noone can see the sighs.
One Day! Light and dark. Right or wrong. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Right thought, right action. Changes everything. On the the spot. Perfect rhyming time.
If there isn't a poet in the house. Only a pure center being, Who is__ Not quite as pure, as he would have you believe. I come to the supulchur to be purified. Light!
Weightless... God's indulgence is the rendering of passage, and unperfected right taken tries. I have been here _the whole time trying to blend and re-call. Everything that lies ahead_ Is beyond my command.
I lay at the door reeling in the center of that spot under the stairs. Imaginations end_ has only beginnings of 'therefore'. With love I begin over, and try to remember_ why I think my chances are taken_ To be the right way.
I allow myself to think, therefore...I follow my lead. I think I will commend my effort to a real anxious desire. To find the 'Wherefore art thou?' A personality, a trend. A message free reason to exist in this cyber factory of words.
Nothing can dissuade my personal blend of self satisfaction. The audacity of breathing chances in the night. I am a song sung enterprise. I am not the music or words. I am a language I learn each day, because I am my voice.
It says, " These are words. These are the meanings of saying things." Differently, as in the order of new chains. Laying about in the raining mist of a new night. I ruggedly, softly command the titling floor of my escape.
I lift the page_ to lower the door. Endings are many, and they will not come undone. I did not try the other way. Guaranteed satisfaction. I don't know what I am doing this for. Beyond!
Question? If you are still in my room under the stairs. You know more than I will acknowledge. I admire your curiousity. You have been here before. That is what I love about the night.
When a personal night ends and preparations are made. Sleep..., rest is or is not a choice, but eventually it descends. We begin again, and find our rebirth in the deepest earth of night. The lighting of the streets we pass_moving forth_ are the difference in tomorrow's ends.
Stillness is what I will be looking for. This ends tonight_on my time. My run of time is blending forward into_ Pleasing thoughts of dependibility.
Listen, I've talked enough. I'm done being this unusual creature of division. As soon as I say that... I know my chance is only this.
I will do this again and wonder why... And I will try to render a better rendition of faith. My practice is not a crime. I am working on the perfection of the sublime.
My time, my ends. I delight in being me. Again. Childhood's great enterprise. The crossing of the deep dark sea. Above the starry night. The horizon ahead.
One hour in and I am done for. Ta ra ...nighty night... TR Emotion:Love Loving the giving of Self.
2008@beeswax.call
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The hands move on from one block to another
Carelessly caressing our lives as they slip through the fingers
And yet we pause
We yet again take breath
Life is worth it
Worth it all and so much more...
Heaven will wait
He's always watching and waiting
Over us
For his own...
Be well Rusty...
I am beside myself, as the observer of the declension.
Meaning by that, another word, or in other words,
I am a creature of the nature of the purpose of my being.
The life of the letter of being the communique of the moment_
is left to my sense of when can I ever be what happens...when!
I sense your presence as the words hang from wires overhead.
I am under your eyes reading back to you my sense_
Of what my heart supplies. Unbound by the art of the moment. The sun.
Scribes the page with all that comes molten from the pen.
Capture the yen of the time, when...I can realise_
I have eyes to see and a sense of timing, but my music is_
Noise...Out of the night of my co-dependence I find crevices.
Moments of duality and lightened stretches at the edge of supply.
What for: Do I do this? It could just be_ that I have nothing to say.
The trappings and the harness of overbridging rigidity draws me.
Out of my hiding place. In the ultimate timing...versions flow
I want to rise to the true creative serum of forward inspiration.
Drawing out the end of my lost world enterprise.
Buzzards flying overhead..No worries now.
I see the scripture of true light.
My blown cover is a windy day, walking down the lane.
Without a care in the world, I absorb my threads and materialise.
So to that end, I enterprise in hope.
I depend on nothing else.
There is real life, as we know it.
And then, there is the Hope of
Real_eyes, seeing sight.
Depending on the heart
to see the Light.
Threads of when_
And my hope_
that You can see_
I am your friend.
The End
Your eyes.
Rusty-2008
STANDING OVATION-
loved it!..
You give me light and a very deep desire to achieve..something worthwhile. That said ...This is right now, and we are close
...too the Edge. Trust
We need not know?
We need not care that we know not?
Could it be
That we reflect the sun
That the sun shines ever?
Could it be
This place is a creation
Just for us
Just for we who need to find...
Thinking of you Rusty... be well
I do believe_ we are stardust. We have come a long way to get the rest.
Our place is here_ but we know where home is.
The breath of God's love is not a generic remedy. It is an exact prescription of beautiful determined pathways that carry exacting remedies designed to carry their exact messages_home. I love you as you speak of your path and your home. Your light is out there to be real in this world.
At the moment_I am in the 'doghouse', so to speak, but I have faced more ferocious forces. This is merely a contract negotiation referral references tendered...tempers_ tired and tried...
I would love to know why I came out this way. How long have I been going on? I write this like it matters. It does, because it is now, and then it is over, but I cared about what I said, because each and every communique is fully in force. Words mean something. Then and now. Good night, Rosie...Rusty
Your thoughts were beautiful and well reflected to my life. I was moved. Your light is beautiful and true. 'Smiles'
Sleep well. Yes, it's small but it matters...
luv ye,
n.
Toni